I find myself also discovering many things that suggest that Jesus himself was not exactly physically charismatic, although somehow his sermons must have been.
And if I begin to question the truth behind the apostles, should I not question the truth behind the Torrah as well? When translated accurately and carefully dissected, the Old and New Testaments together have always amazed me, especially in relation to other ancient cultures and symbols, such as the Great Pyramid at Giza.
Even still, I've been presented with an argument against faith that I suddenly feel I cannot counter. And I almost feel lost and overwhelmed with it altogether.