Almost a year passed before I knew him for myself.
I still do not understand much of why he does what he does. I only know that he must continue to question, to challenge every comfortable given. Someone complains about a problem? Don't just identify it. Tell your solution! Find your way! Never "you people", but "we". There are no strangers here. Ask the questions. I will answer.
In what does a person reside? In what do I reside? In a name? In a label? In the gentle exception of one particular label?
Ah, Camilla: I would not ruffle your feathers for the least -- and yet, sometimes, I know I must cause you grief. Dearest cydar, whom perhaps I challenge more than any: I turn upon you perhaps far too often the lens I usually turn a different way, although I know you must see things differently than I. More rightly? less? Dare I begin to judge that? As always, I allow far too many commitments, too much involvement, continue to juggle at once with fire and with water: yet I cannot say "too much" -- for that would imply identifying one, or all, as being less a part of myself.
Which one commitment makes too many? Which one could I cut from myself? How could I ever say "too many", when each and every one of you has become someone for whom I care deeply -- yet must still challenge, even in the most deeply seated beliefs? I love who you are -- and perhaps it is precisely this that makes me ask the cutting questions, and will make me keep asking them.
Yet I believe in people, all people. That may have been why I started this board. The aim was never to scare off -- but for many who have already posted here I have seen what you are capable of, and I will tease you unmercifully should I see any less.
I will never stop challenging, Camilla -- but I will never stop stealing your cookies either.